But the road ahead of me is much, much longer. I still experience those deliciously torturous psychological "triggers," the most prominent one being the process of watching others smoke. Perhaps because I instantly recall that "relaxed, satisfied feeling" I experienced as soon as I began to inhale. And I remember it as a social experience . . . with my smokin' buddies. But my formerly more prominent "light-one-up-now!" triggers, like sitting in front of the home computer, finishing a satisfying meal, finishing a satisfying f*#k, driving, having a cocktail . . . well, THOSE seem to be under control. So far.
I almost have myself believing that there is only ONE person who could command me to light up a ciggie . . . perhaps because he looks so delicious doing so himself . . .
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I am barely smoking these days and I am actually glad they no longer allow smoking in the bars so I do not have to fumigate my clothing every time I go out. Because I barely smoke anymore, many have said to merely quit in totality. I choose to simply let it fade away. I do however commend those who have given up the filthy habit and one day, I too may join your ranks.
It is very much a personal decision as to when and why one quits. You will know when you are truly ready, if you feel you must stop. I would LOVE to be one of those people who could smoke one pack a month and not let it progress, but alas, I am not. For me, it really is an addiction, and one that I felt I was ready to lose.
I've been wondering how it was going. Well done!
Thanks, Val!
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